Well hello, friend!
Come on in, rest for a minute, and grab a cup of tea with me!
I’m Toni Lagaras, a pastor’s wife, mama to my 3 kiddos, and to be honest – I’m still trying to figure out how to navigate the chaos of life.
I eat too much sometimes, don’t exercise enough most times, get behind on my Bible reading plan (a lot!) and seem to always have a messy house. My library books are always overdue and I’m always forgetting something.
I went to Bible school with BIG dreams when I was 20, met my husband a few years later, started having kids a few years after that, and wha-la….the instant chaos of day-to-day life put my BIG dreams on the back burner.
Instead of ministering to the masses, I was trying to figure out where to put Bible reading and prayer time in my day between diapers and potty training and cooking and laundry and cleaning up messes and life.
(I heard somewhere that cleaning the house with toddlers was like brushing your teeth while eating Oreos. So true!)
There were a lot of invisible years. Mostly I felt forgotten. But looking back now, I see I wasn’t invisible or forgotten. I was hidden.
And in my secret hiding place, I learned a few things about grace and love and life and walking hand in hand every day with the God who threw the stars into place.
He taught me about rhythms of life and helped me be content where I was. And He used things like pork chops and laundry to show me how to live the mundane days of regular life in an extraordinary way full of awe and wonder. Full of Him.
Sometimes I miss those hidden, quiet years, and what I resented for so long I now yearn to go back to. But new seasons bring new schedules and there is no going back…only finding a new way to connect in the new chaos of now.
Most of all, I’m thankful that in those invisible years I nurtured the most intimate relationship with God. And I wouldn’t trade that for anything.
Baking is therapy to me, and so is writing. So, if you notice me posting a lot, you’ll just know – it was a rough week and I may need some prayer! If you don’t see me posting at all – you may want to send in the calvary. That would mean I’m overwhelmed. (Just keepin’ it real!)
Thanks for stopping by. I hope you’ll come back from time to time. And I pray the words you find in these journal pages will make you laugh (and maybe cry) and help you through life just a bit. But most of all, I hope they help you dive deeper into the sweetness of relationship with Him. His presence is heaven on earth.